I was about
to open that door
when I got the phone call.
I don’t remember anything before that
and I’ve never asked for help since.
My head started to tic
like a jumping bean,
like a glitchy video,
like a gull-durned dirty bomb ’bout to go.
I thought first to protect the kids.
The kids said, “We don’t share.”
I said, “Are you invincible?”
The kids said, “Bro, go away and let us play.”
Then I took to the elders.
I talked with them of luck and free will.
They fed me sweet breads iced with cinnamon and fate.
“These are brief times, mostly happy, swirling in mystery…”
Afterwards, I could say goodbye without feeling my everything churning and grinding unto itself and onto the floor and out of the door and into the street to await a thing without attention or intention.
I imagine this story continues long after we go home for the night.
Let me know
what you think
about my new
video game idea:
It’s a 4-D action/adventure, socio-politico, platformer
set in a randomly-iterated universe using a believable physics engine.
as a butterfly
who wants to retire
to its plush room
every night, and spend
in deep thought
to make its room
The room has a library
and dungeons and
a swimming pool
filled with bumblebees.
the player decides
what the butterfly needs
After the player chooses
the morning affirmation,
molds the world
into magical items
at the witch market.
I call the game The Hunt because
as play progresses
comes to realize
that the grim reaper
is chasing a bounty
on the butterfly’s
tiny, antennaed head.
The Hunt has one mode:
Player vs. Death.
has many powers
the game universe
May 15th, 2018
Bits of broken tombstone surround the tree of life, jagged little reminders that all monuments someday crack and crumble.
A speck-like spider falls from the tree of life onto my pale hand. Before it has a chance to find its own way home, I send it to the land of wet grasses on a gust of self-generated wind. I have never cared for spiders, however minuscule.
I count no less than twenty shards of gravestone and wonder if the tree of life is to blame. The tree of life, grown so large from all the now-quiet bodies if hovers over while under the bone-infested ground, the roots of life seek water.
I spy no faces upon the tree of life’s cracked and ornery skin. I only spy black ants and sick-yellow lichens.
Are the faces then underground with the roots or perhaps higher up on the trunk, well above eye-level, spied only by wandering drones or a telescoping eye from a nearby window? Are the faces then in the branches, obscured by oblique leaves?
Perhaps the tree of life has no faces at all…
Perhaps the tree of life is just a dis-envisaged voice repeating so slowly, “So happy now you’ve gone.”
And what then for us still left to hear?
What new lessons do we have to share?
April 13th, 2018
The sun is out,
though western clouds
threaten death from above.
It is the stormy season.
I am listening
to the wind and M83
and eating lunch and thinking
of the dead supporting me.
Two robins eye my salad,
chirp, “The dead support us all!”
The wind howls like life,
blowing everything away.
Still those gathering birds,
with all their hollow bones,
keep moving toward me,
hungry look in their eyes.
They don’t mind the wind.
They don’t fight the clouds.
They understand what’s coming.
It is the stormy season.
Shh, I have been waiting long hours,
under an emerging sky full of stories,
waiting for you to close your eyes and crawl through this red room,
crawl through while feeling your bent body’s weird weight as a tingling pressure upon your weak wrists,
crawl through with a switchblade clenched
between yellowed teeth,
stained by tea and lemon crumpets,
stained by the yellow blood of the Sun,
stained by the stains
of the yellow room
you crawled through
in your yellow youth
Shh, Shh, I have been waiting such long hours,
such long and winding hours,
like a patient waiting for a diagnosis,
just like a patient
waiting for a death note,
of every living, pulsing thing.